I was not a cool kid, I was a geek.
Geek popular nerd. While today my nerddom is a badge of honor, back then it was like the kiss of death. I sucked at sports, was a late bloomer and awkward around boys. As if all of that weren’t enough my mental health took a turn for the worse as I started my second year of high school and I started therapy. And I started drinking.
The more alcohol I drank, the less I cared. About what people thought, about what I said and what I did. I had found the cure for all that shyness and anxiety! So I became was the ultimate party girl. I was popular! That was what I wanted, right? Ugh. Wrong. It was the beginning of a long line of missteps, man problems, and social disasters. I was cool and popular like this:
What a mess. I overslept and missed school. Made excuses to leave my after school job early and go out drinking. What I really looked like:
It was bad. Let’s skip the middle since most of it is fodder for the book. Fast forward to today.
Geek Popular Nerd
She is who I am. She is like a superhero. Saving the world from the keys of my MacBook. Yea. I like it. Geek popular nerd. Today we call it extroverted introvert. I like people. Just usually from a distance. That’s why I love technology. You all don’t even know if I’m wearing pants right now, but we are hanging out, getting to know each other and I’m not chugging a bottle of rum or having a panic attack. I call that a win.
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