Now that I’ve got your attention! It’s hard to write about what you do, without first telling people who you ARE. My name is Kathy and I have Bipolar Disorder. Sounds like you just walked into group therapy right? Sarcasm, sex, sassy, satirical and sensitive. Funny, but in a weird way. When most people meet me they think I am either intimidating, bat shit crazy, or just a bitch! Politician, a president, stand up comedy, I do it all…..from behind the bar!
I’m an introverted extrovert. It’s a defense mechanism. Go in like gangbusters and rarely does the other person realize that I’m halfway to a panic attack. Talking fast and tough so no one notices I’m uncomfortable. You would think I was one of the mean girls when actually I was normally their target. See? Just a couple of sentences in and I’m already rambling. Let’s go back in time just a bit. As a child, I was painfully shy. Most of the time my cheeks matched my hair color. I wanted everyone to like me but I didn’t like me very much. Full of anxiety and never comfortable, I was a smart kid, an honor student, but like every other teenage girl, all I wanted to be was one of the cool kids.
I was not a cool kid
While today my nerddom is a badge of honor, back then it was like the kiss of death. I sucked at sports, was a late bloomer and awkward around boys. As if all of that weren’t enough my mental health took a turn for the worse as I started my second year of high school and I started therapy. And I started drinking.
The more alcohol I drank, the less I cared. About what people thought, about what I said and what I did. I had found the cure for all that shyness and anxiety! So I became was the ultimate party girl. I was popular! That was what I wanted, right? Ugh. Wrong. It was the beginning of a long line of missteps, man problems, and social disasters.
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